Aaaah that was the most nervous I've ever been in my whole life!

But...Yukari said yes!

So much planning to do, so little time. Holiday, wedding, baby...This is even more stressful that being held at gunpoint or ransom. But...A good kind of stressful.

Ti amo <3 (You know, I can really get used to saying this again.) Ti amo bella <3

So I had an appointment at the doctors this morning. They need to do blood tests. I don't know why. All I wanted was another prescription for the meds I had a while ago. Now both my arms hurt since they couldn't get anything from my right arm. That one hurts the most, what the hell?

Nine months is ages away -sighs- OH Yukari!! We need to talk about dates, Ma won't stop calling me.

I...I'm..whoa I'm gonna be a dad. As in...me..a future father o___o! As in...a baby.

I don't think I've gone very long without smiling...or crying like an idiot. Oh whoa...It's...it's such a great feelng.

And I can smoke again o__o~!

So we're out. So close.

ANYWAY. Called Ma to tell her more about me and Yukari. Of course the family had to be over when I called and she told everyone. Well...I said the whole family, that's be almost impossible...there's like...30-40 of us...well...more since people are all getting married and such. But...a large majority...And they all started talking about it. I got a headache over the phone.

Ma wants us to come over soon. Been looking at costs, Ma might really want to meet us...but maybe it'd be better to stay in like Rome and just travel in for a few days. There's nothing to do in Grosseto. Well, except look at the cathedral, but really...that's a tourist thing...I suppose when we go over, I can take Yuakri and show her, but I always loved Rome. Everywhere else was just too far away.

I find it amusing that on Google Maps, all of Korea is blank.

Maru's getting really big now.....Wish we could take him

Oh...what's that France? 2-0? HAR!! I believe you just had your ass handed to you!!! Quarter-finals!!!

Yukari.........<3

I've been in a total day dream for two days now. I can't wait -Grins.-

Thanks Yukari for the ego boost <3 -Is better~-

...Oh wow. Just wow.

I swear, I'm going to find the refs for Euro08 and KICK their asses!!! WTF he didn't allow the goal, what a fucking douché!!! >OOO At least we got a goal, and at least Buffon saved that one so we're still in. Against France next o____o we have to win, we HAVE to. We need to get to the quater-finals!!! We're the world's best, MOVE IT GUYS!!

More later 8D Hungry.

I know about 10 years ago I'd have been even more excited to be here. Camden would have made me squeal and melt into a babbling mass of fanboyish goo.

I'm still excited as all Hell!! I haven't been here since I was a kid, well...14. Everything's changed, but I still saw stuff that I remembered~~! The flight was incredibly dull and long and I couldn't sleep very well because I could STILL hear the screaming brat at the back of the plane -___-

But it's good to get away from work and just be with Yukari, even if she does have to work ;___;

Uuuuuugh so tired I think I'm gonna pass out. It's now the 13th here aswell. Timezones, suck.

STUPID FUCKING NETHERLANDS!!! HE WAS OFF-SIDE GOD DAMN IT!!! >OOO I WATCHED THE DAMN REPLAY OVER AND OVER ASWELL YOU FUCKING IDIOTS AND IT WAS OFF-SIDE!!! Fucking booking players for telling a stupid ref to LOOK AT THE REPLAY!!!

Arg!

All Holland supporters, stay away from me >O Here's hoping Friday has a better result against Romania!!!

If anyone so much as thinks about bothering me, I will not hesitate to draw out my gun and leave you laying on the ground with several bullet holes.

I don't fucking get them half the damn time.

One minute everything's great. The next their fucking pissed off, and they don't tell you why, so you don't know if it's you're fault. Half the fucking time they'll blame you anyway. They tell you to fucking get lost, so you can't even apologise for something you don't fucking know!!

Let me guess, you bad mood thing is completely, and utterly, 100% my fucking fault.

Fuck. That.

And that...was even better.

[Only viewable to those involved.]

...........Yeah. Kinda forgot my ass would be sore today.

.____.

Chair sex.

Awesome.

Try it.

Now.

YES I did rest. YES I did eat. YES I feel better.

I didn't know it was physically possible to sleep that long. It feels like so long ago everything happened.

Maru keeps attacking my feet. Unusual for me to be asking, but...Yukari, when are you coming home?

Basch, I think I've found something...I can't reach it yet, but the lights are hitting something. I'll be able to get it out in a few hours, I'm not sure what it is yet...could be nothing.

How are Reno and Kanda?

This coffee isn't working...</strike>

I can't help but listen to lighter music now. So I shoved a CD on. It's good...And really, it's the kind that makes you ignore the dangers and worries of the ban.

I don't think any of the neighbours will complain. Most of them are younger people, and the old lady loves me 8D!

I shouldn't have cooked with cabbage..The kitchen STILL smells of it!! I can't wash any of my clothes because of it. I had to dry the stuff with a dish towel and obviously wash the towel. So the washing machine is like...Cabbage scented. So I just have to wash loads of towels before doing clothes. And I have a massive pile of clothes waiting! .____. I'm almost out of clean stuff aswell...

HURRY UP >OOO

I missed Yukari.

(OOC : Edited the time of entry so it didn't clash with log. Forgot he would be at work so made it an early morning post 8D)

Okay, so it looked like fun, and I'm bored here people.

[Turks only 8D]

( LALA )

I can't stop laughing. I'm so easily amused!



Why didn't you tell us?!


I miss Yukari. Maru didn't cry as much lastnight, he just curled up on the bed .__. Such a cute dog!



Look at him!! Isn't he just so cute!!!

I'm mostly better now. Mostly. I'll get there. Eventually.

Yukari, I'm sorry about yesterday, I wasn't in any mood to talk to...well anyone. I suppose I'll get around to telling you eventually. It's just going to take some time, okay?

I feel physically sick. I can't hold these damn tears back anymore. Nothing needs to happen, and the tears just start. I had to lock my office door and sit with my back to it because people kept coming in. I can't deal with this. I thought I was over it all. I guess I'm wrong. It's so hard to just forget everything.

6 fucking years! It's still hurting me. Maybe...maybe because I never had anything going on between then and now. Maybe I'm afraid...No...I am afraid it'll happen again. I don't want it to. I can't take it if it happens anymore. I don't want to show me to only be left alone again. It took so long to burying everything...Fuck....FUCK!!!

This sums it up practically...well...entirely.

( Patience - Take That )