[Semi-private; viewable to only those who know about his relationship with Lui]

I am not sure how to react, but it seems as though the press have been following me everywhere as of late. It's unnerving, feeling people watching you no matter what you do. It's enough being the son of a prominent government official, but this is just ridiculous.

It seems my father has scared most of them away. There was a group of them outside his office this morning, wanting to know how he felt about it all. He simply told them it was none of their business. I do not know if that will silence them, at least not until they find something else to focus their interest on. I do hope they find something else to keep them occupied soon.

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My family has been questioning me, but I do not know how to tell them. I cannot tell them I am in a relationship with Lui, for they would never let me see him again. I simply cannot allow such a thing to happen. Lui has become everything to me, and to be separated from him would break my heart. They must not know.

Albel's being a jerk about this whole thing! So it's fine for him to go to a protest, but not me? That's not fair!

>___<# We're not talking at the moment.

[P-H-Rae and Yukari (and maybe Cross?) only]
I find myself thinking of him a lot lately. My mind drifts off in the middle of a task, and I have to reel it back in.

How distracting.

I'm sure Raenaf must have noticed by now. He has yet to call me on it, at least: I don't know how I'd explain this if he did say something.

I wonder if it's okay to call him. I could use some company--or at least a friendly voice.

Perhaps this time I won't hang up before the first ring.


Edit: Well... Raenaf knows now. At least he has yet to ask things I haven't figured out myself.

[Private, not hackable]
Edit #2: I couldn't do it. It still feels strange to want to call him and ask to talk or to see him.

I'll try again in a bit. Or perhaps he'll call me in the meantime.

There's been a lot on my mind lately. I'm not sure what to do about it.

My thoughts seem more stressful than things have actually been lately, but at least I know what that sense of doom was.

There's no way to take my mind off this, and there's nothing I can do about it. I'll have to get over this on my own too.

Ah, business calls my name again. Once again I'll be headed off to Europe soon. I leave for Rome in a week and a half, London after.

Miss Saber, if you're healed enough by then, would you still care to accompany me?


[P-U/H-Gabbykins]
Well, what next?
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Tomorrow I leave for other countries, and I won't return home for a month. At least this is the last of it, and I'll be home for a long while after I return.

I'm glad that we filmed here though... I feel like progress has been made.

One month. Well... One and a half, more like. But I'll return a star.

Leaving Moo and Basch, of course will be hard. She's so cute.

I'm getting my cast off sometime late next week. The doctor says he might give me a splint to wear and I'll have to go to physio, but at least I'll be able to walk. I should call to set up an appointment for physiotherapy now so I don't have to wait for one later. I will be better before I go to Naha on August 5th, damn it! I want to be able to swim while we're there.

Okay, none of these are the stuff that was requested, but I'm sharing anyway. Yeah, Sena got bored and doodled to amuse herself. XD;

( One Kadaj doodle, and one Asch doodle. )

( And since I'm posting art, a Kadaj/Axel sketch I did like... three months ago, I think. )

More later, hopefully more on-topic and related to what people requested. XD; Pronnie, what kind of porn did you want lawl?

Just a heads-up that I am going to be super-scarce now. I have a job now, and not only do I typically work five days a week (or so my schedule says), I work 11-7, which means I get up at 8:30, leave at 9:30, and don't get home until 8:30-ish. If you need to reach me, it's best you do it by email, or try to catch me on Tuesdays and Thursday, which are my permanent days off.

Tags will be slower, replies to comments will likely be even slower than before. I'm not ignoring you guys, I swear. I just... don't feel like it. ;~~; *lame excuse, sorry*

Sorry to anybody this inconveniences, I suppose, but money for Otakon and having insurance are much more important than tags to me right now. ^__^

Now I'm going to go baby my feet and hips, because they are crying and unused to standing up for so long. Friday's going to kill me. ;~; I'll be around a while longer tonight!

Well instead of relying on other people I decided to actually hire some movers!  I know I know, please try not to be so shocked!

While watching Dante and Vergil be all manly would have been enjoyable, my state of mind would not have allowed that.  So I hired some ugly overweight guys to lug my shit around.  I kept certain stuff well hidden within boxes that were in my storage so they were none the wiser.

Now I am in the new place and ooohhh is it nice!  It even looks like its in an entirely new area/world! 

Im gonna get a twin bed for the extra bedroom just in case I ever have a visitor I think, you never know.

So yes, I am typing from my laptop on my new couch which is sitting in my new living room.  I am a very happy Lady right now. 

Oh and...water pressure and temperature is to die for.  <3

I am not impressed.

I had a shoot this morning with a client that has been given nothing but praise by my agent... well right about now I'm ready to make him eat his words. The shoot was horrid. Those people had no idea what they were doing! I felt as if children were running the damn shoot! I could have easily done it better all by myself.

*rubs at temples* It was a huge headache and if they ever EVER ask for me to model for them again I will slaughter them all. Not before doing the same to my agent.

*sighs* And Nero is still not back... stupid brat...


(ooc: Vergil is all stressed from Nero still being gone awwww XD)

I'm still really worried about Luke and Asch... but I'm starting to see that this is something they are going to have to work out themselves. But I'll be here for them if they need me for anything.

*sheepish* Oh and uh, sorry Sir (that'd be Peony XD) for not coming over to walk your pigs lately. Galen has been sick lately and I had to bring him to the vet. It was a huge mess. I've had to keep a close eye on him and didn't want to leave him alone any longer than when I'm at work. I hadn't really had a chance to mention it to you while at work so, thought I'd say something here.

In my free hours, as many as I can manage to pull away from work, I have been spending time with Balthier. I have to say, I am glad he is home again. If not for a short while, it is nice to have him with me. It is also good for little Moo. She can get use to him before he goes off this Saturday.

It does help that Vossler is back at work. Less workload for everyone in general, which means I have a bit more time with Balthier. Though... I almost feel like I am using Vossler... though that is hardly the way of it.

Tonight I shall have to cook something for dinner, then we can relax on the couch, maybe watch something if Balthier is up for it.

Love? Is there anything you would wish me to cook?


Ah, and congrats to Vincent and Yukari. I am happy for you both. Though it only reminds me of... things... *sighs*

[private//hackable]

These pills are making me absolutely insane...I hate it and I want to go home. *rolling around on the hospital bed wishing it were MY bed* So the other day, I guess, the nurse told me that I was having a full on serious conversation with the bird outside my window....don't ask....please just don't....she said that I was telling it about my dojo and something along the lines of offering it a job with good pay. I really really don't know...But other then that, she told me as I was using her laptop earlier I was laughing at this video for about a straight hour...(http://youtube.com/watch?v=pCLIg6WT7zM for all you final fantasy lovers out there...Gil-mun sent this to me last night and we both admitted we were in tears because we found this so funny |D)

[private//hackable]

OH! And before I forget, Hiruma-kun the other day, before I had my fall, I found these two guns and thought  you might be interested in them. I bought them so you'd better be interested in them. Secondly, Agon how are things at home?  

(Edit forgot to add)

Another thing, if any one has any comments about me being careless, reckless, weak, any other colorful words you can come up with, come to the hospital and tell me yourself so  while you tell me I can beat you over the head with my IV.

Aaaah that was the most nervous I've ever been in my whole life!

But...Yukari said yes!

So much planning to do, so little time. Holiday, wedding, baby...This is even more stressful that being held at gunpoint or ransom. But...A good kind of stressful.

Ti amo <3 (You know, I can really get used to saying this again.) Ti amo bella <3